the hardest thing
>> Monday, June 29, 2009

What is the hardest thing for me at this point?
I could say that it is realizing that our hope of having a family of four only lasted from June 1 through June 29.
Almost a month, but not quite..
Almost a baby with a heart, but not quite..
Almost a family of four, but not quite..
But the real hardest thing is..
writing about our loss for the first time in print so I can learn to deal and heal with the pain..
I will mourn until today since today is the day I said the final good-bye, but I have to start moving on tomorrow-- even if it is a baby step. Now that I think of it, the hardest thing might be tomorrow.





